He...

he, the person i admired
he, the person i looked up to...
a towering figure of resilience
the epitome of a young poor boy from china
and despite all the odds that were against him,
became wealthy materially, yet corroded morally,

he, the person i despised
he, the person i grew to dislike...
disgust, contempt, shame - this what you made me feel
hurt, you don't know how much suffering you caused...
sorry, i wish you could have apologized them
love, a feeling i will never let go
sorrow, now that you're gone....

i look forward for the future too much, that i forget to enjoy the present.

in a few days time, my flatmates are leaving for good. the people who supported me through my usmle, my break-ups, my crazy moments....they're going back to their homeland.

i feel sad, because i'll still be living in the flat for a month and everything in the flat, reminds me of them....

they are like my family here in glasgow, and i'm thankful to God to have placed us together in flat d.

merci

with a grateful heart,

i want to thank you LORD!

i love you JESUS

Its 0230, my eyes are all red and tired…but before I forget, I have a huge task to accomplish before I unwind on my bed…
It has been the toughest 3 months of my life, i felt like I’ve just survived a tsunami that wiped away my soul – clean. There were so many moments that I felt like I was stretched to the limits, and like a rubberband that has reached its tensile limit, I felt like I was going to break…I was at my lowest point, a reminiscent of my eos3 zombie phase..times 10 because I was all alone in this journey….
But in the end, I did not give up….it was not because I was strong or that I was prepared…but because God is merciful and because God sent His angels…
Mummy, though you’re fast asleep beside me right now, I want to let you know that I love you so much…the 13 hours flight that you had to endure, and the 8 hours that you waited for me at the lobby….no one could have done what you have done for me ma’….for taking a 2 week leave from work just to come and take care of me…thank you, thank you, thank you….and the chocolate piece that I gave you, with the words “Best Mum”…that’s you ma’
Daddy, thank you for always calling me to check if I’m ok…for asking me not to be overly stressed out and that I can always retake the exam again…even if it meant that you have to pay for it…
Pei, for your quirky hallmark card and for having to listen me whine on the phone for endless hours…and for telling me that I’m going to regret it if I don’t take it…love ya, babe…our American dream dear….and pei, you know me inside out, my bff…
Fabian, for prayers every day and for listening to me cry on the phone :`( everwilling to sacrifice your precious time just to chat with me…for being ever so generous and for being such an angel in my life….
Jin, I love you…and thank you for calling me every morning at 5am to wake me up to study. For watching me study over the webcam and for always reassuring me that if I fail I can always be your housewife :@
Sarah, my dear….thank you for your prayers…I can’t wait to see you again and somehow, I always feel that you’re constantly near…love you my dear..
Melissa, thank you for calling me and for encouraging me despite your tight schedule….muaks..
To my friends, who wished me well, you know who you are..and I wanna say merci beaucoup…
And above all, thank you Lord Jesus Christ, for Your love has never failed. You are my rock and my fortress, my strength and my Rescuer…in times of trouble…
Praise the Lord, Amen.